I Want To Die But I Want To Eat Tteokbokki (Paperback) By Baek Sehee

I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki is a candid memoir by South Korean author Baek Sehee, chronicling her experiences with dysthymia—a form of chronic depression. The book presents a series of transcribed therapy sessions between Baek and her psychiatrist over a twelve-week period, interspersed with her personal reflections.

As a successful social media director, Baek outwardly maintains a composed and efficient persona. However, internally, she grapples with persistent feelings of low self-worth, anxiety, and self-doubt. The narrative delves into her internal conflicts, exploring how societal expectations and personal insecurities contribute to her mental health struggles. The recurring mention of her craving for tteokbokki—a popular Korean street food—serves as a metaphor for her desire to find comfort amidst emotional turmoil.

This memoir offers an intimate look into the complexities of mental health, particularly within the context of South Korean society, where such topics are often stigmatized. Baek’s honest and relatable account has resonated with readers worldwide, leading to its translation into multiple languages and widespread acclaim.